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The "Dead-End"

This post will be something about FengShui. A few days ago, i was complaining about my career life to my ex-colleague, immediately he told me maybe i am sitting at the "Dead-End" (Shi Jiao) in the office. This is due to my cubicle is located at a corner of the office.

My back is facing the "Dead-End". According to FengShui this position will caused a lots of bad luck / health problem / career problem to those facing or having this corner at their back or facing it in front of you.

Too bad he only tell me this after three years I have been sitting at this corner, back facing the "Dead-End". I immediately consult another friend who have more fengshui knowledge and she directed me to move my current sitting position in order to avoid from the "Dead-End".

All this while, i thought my sitting position is at good FengShui as my back is facing a wall but i did not realise that when i facing my computer my back actually facing the "Dead-End" which a corner formed by joining two walls. No wonder, ever since i joined this company, i always face a lots of problems. First of all, i missed lots of career opportunities / health problem / i easily get frustrated / my temper change tremendeously to really bad temper= i easily get mad /.

I am hoping by changing to a better sitting position and of course a better fengshui position, i hope that i will be getting good luck...... improve my health condition...... and a lots more.

Believe it or not...... Fengshui does matter!

Pay Raised

Yes, today i just got the pay raised announcement from the b*ss. I am in-charge of all administrative function in the office. So i will have the access to get all this information.

To my surprise, the percentage for my increment which is lower than what i expected, it is only 1.5% from my present monthly salary. Seems that i am the second lower in term of percentage. The lowest is at 1% and the highest is at 10%. The increment range from RM16 to RM238. So in other word, some of the employees is getting as low as RM16 for the increment.

From the data, i figure out that the b*ss is "pilih kasih". He has prejudice towards certain person. To be honest, those who got the lower increment do not mean that those guys are not performing well. It is the b*ss's problem and mindset. He will only treat those "Yes Man" as his buddies, those who "brave" enough to speak out his or her opinion (he will think that you guys are challenging him).

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It is very difficult to work under my b*ss as he is not a management person. He is originally from engineering background and never involve in management task. This is his first time involving in management positin ever since he had been promoted to a Branch Manager. So it it really hard for him to compromise when handling management issues. So there are moment that disagreement between me and him while carried out my job. So he feels that I am against him. While carry out my duties, I try to be lenient for certain policy and to be strict for certain policy that i cannot compromise with. But the b*ss has the feeling that i am helping the staff and trying to cheat on him. He does not believe in people. In fact I am not. Every decision is approved by him, i am only helping to gather information. Any how, the b*ss still the decision maker.

To be honest, i have done extra work in my duties. As an adminitrative assistant in the office, i handled stuff from: Receptionist/Telephone operator/HR/Clerical task/Personal Assistant/Account/Payroll/Administrative Task/Banking/Shipping/Purchasing/and etc. Anything that you can think of others than an engineer's job that would be my responsibility.

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Beside this, i even help to clean up the pantry, to wash the hand towels whenever i found they are too dirty, using my hand "push" all the rubbish into the dustbin whenever the bin is "too full" because our cleaning lady only come once a week to clear the rubbish. So what do you think of a company that is having 16 staff and most of them will pack their foods and bring into the office starting from breakfast until lunch. Just imagine how much of the waste collected in the dustbin. Furthermore they just simply "place" the rubbish into the bin, so after 2-3 days, the bin will be too "full" and all the rubbish will be "packing" up and the lip of the bin will left open. Ohhh gosh....... the smell........ in the air-conditioned office. (Our office is small). To refill the thermos whenever it is empty, most of the staff will just leave it empty and only a few person will willingly refill it.

There are some others tiny things that i do extra for the office which is not in my job responsibility. Like clean up the store room, sorting out recycle papers, boxes just like an Indonesian maid.

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But see what i get........ my contribution is not appreciated but those who is cheeky and cheated on him get the higher increment.

So from now on, i will not do all those extra task because "you pay peanut, you get monkey"!

Why i turn down the offer

Continue from my last post......

My concerns for the job offer:

• the nature of the job (for sure it is a very hectic task)

• it is a temporary position (only six months-but very high possibility to convert to permanent staff :P)

• the offer is not the attractive (bcoz next month will be my annual review with the boss and there is very high possibility of salary increment, but it won't be much maybe just 1-3% only. The pay my friends are fighting for me will be about 5-6% more from my current salary. I understand they situation, this is the max that they can go for as this is only a temporary headcount, they already did their best. But sometime, it is not worth it for you to let go a job you prefer and manageable just because of 5-6%) sorry J & G :P

• i am so scare that thing will be end up the same as previous experience i encountered. I I will go back to those busy working life and endless issues that need to follow up and solve; dealing with rude and selfish co-worker especially the "salesperson". The salesperson in this company are well-known for their rudeness and "snobbishness". Never-ending workload and escalation need to handle; lots of ad-hoc issue. I cannot get my mind peacefully "rest" eventhough during my rest day. My life had been control by the "work".

But there are some "tempting" point alluring me to take up the offer as well:

• The company = it is a MNC
• The facilities provided by the company (this is fascinating)
• I can be with my friends
• I will have a very supportive and understanding boss
• Better pay and will be able to claim OT if long working hour is required

J&G, i think you guys hate me a lots...... sigh****** but anyway, thank you for all your effort..... maybe this is not the time yet, i am sure i will be joining you guys again very soon......I Love You Guys (including you-C)

I can't make up my mind yet

• Today

My friend called again today to ask for the answer. I turned down the offer, but she still ask me to reconsider and will call again tomorrow for my final decision. She really wanna help. She knew that I wanted to get back to my old company again. And for all this while, she and some others ex-colleagues have been trying really hard to get a position for me. They knew that i wanted an admin job. So whenever there is an opening in any department for admin position they will recommend me. In fact there are a few concerns that stopping me from accepting this offer. I will blog after it in my next writing......

• 2005

Actually i had attended a few interviews in my ex-company after i left the company three years ago. In fact, i managed to get an offer for admin assistant position from my ex-manager in April 2005 ( 8 months later after i left my ex-company). She offered me the position once she knew that i am the candidate. She know me well and very sure that i am the right person to assist her and her team in clerical and admin task. I was really delighted and was thankful. But to my surprise, i failed the Medical Check up which required all the permanent stuff to go through before the HR can pass you the offer letter. I think it was due to excitement and lack of sleep the night before the medical check up, my blood pressure was shooting and the doctor failed me for the examination. But the doc said just let the management to decide whether to take me or not. Anyhow this is luck.....i can't blame anyone as i know that my "Blood pressure reading at the border line". It was just my luck that the reading shooting high on that day.

So end up, i was rejected by the management due to my health is "unfit". I was really sad, disappointed and devastated. It was like i was put "sentenced to death". I was upset that my ex-manager did not fight for me. If she would convince her general manager to take me, i would get the job. So think back of it, who would sacrified her career and relationship with the upper management just because an admin. Right?

So i got a call on 1st of April 2005 from HR manager that my offer was pulled back. So it became the biggest "joke" i had never ever encounted before in my life.

• 2007

A few month back, my friend brought me a good news again. There was an admin position in another department from my ex-company again. It was quite high post as the sucessful candidate got to serve the VP of that department. So, i went for the interview again.....by now you should know the answer right? Yes! i failed again. Before the interview, i was told that it was a very competitive position as a few high potential candidates were applying for the post. And the hiring VP was quite demanding. So now you know, it is really hard to get an admin position in MNC. Those who sucessful get the job, seldom left the job unless there is something worth she make the move.

I hope i did not bore you......

Job Offer

A moment ago, my friend called me and offered me a temporary position in her department. It is a 6 month contract and very high chance to convert to permanent staff if the candidate can perform well during the 6 months period. This is not an easy task though. The job require long working hour especially during quarter end. The person need to liase with sales person, production leaders, logistic and part planner in order to make sure customers' order reached them on time at the designated location. Since the orders involved very high in volume, so it is perdictable that lots of issue will happen in between. Thus the sales department require a coordinator to help them to follow up and make sure the process go smooth..........no escalation from customers......

I have been in this MNC before, i knew how is the working culture in this workplace. It is indeed a very hectic working environment, "no pain no gain". I am suppose to give her the answer whether i dare to take the challenge or not by tomorrow so that she can arrange for an interview with her lady boss who will be in town this Thursday......

I alway wanted to join this MNC again but to seek for an admin job (i mentioned it before) but not something really pressure as what i did in my previous job in this MNC......

So chance is here but not what i dream for.....

Hope

Eventhough sometime i know that things will never turn out the way how i wish them to be, but deep inside my heart i still hope that they can turn into miracles and make my dreams come true.

But of course, the chances are really low......anyway, i still HOPE. Maybe today, tomorrow, day after tomorrow...... perhaps one day......

What do i want ?

Recently, I keep on asking myself "What do i really want?" I just feel that it is sooooo not okie with my currenty life. I never achieve whatever i dream for. I never ask for something luxury, I just wanted something "small" compared to the others. I just ask for an administrative position in a MNC, a supportive boss, a job that i can handle, a job that i will be able to learn more, a stable company the I can make my long term contribution and of course a company that can provide better employee's benefits. But everytime, the opportunity just walked pass me. Not only one but twice with the same company. What is wrong out there! I am so frustrated! My friends are getting better and better in their career paths but mine it seems like getting worst. Why? Where is my luck?

My First Blog

Hi all,

Today mark the first day of my blog.
Why i finally decided to keep a blog? I do not have the exact answer to it. Maybe......

• it is a trend that most of my friends keep at least a blog
• i am too free and got nothing to do
• i have thoughts and secrets to share which i barely speak out

Why i dare not start a blog? Hey! This one i got an answer for it!

• my Engligh is not powerful
• i can't write good English
• i tend to make grammar /spelling / sentence structure errors

Sooooo, please bear with my poor English...... :)