What do i want ?

Recently, I keep on asking myself "What do i really want?" I just feel that it is sooooo not okie with my currenty life. I never achieve whatever i dream for. I never ask for something luxury, I just wanted something "small" compared to the others. I just ask for an administrative position in a MNC, a supportive boss, a job that i can handle, a job that i will be able to learn more, a stable company the I can make my long term contribution and of course a company that can provide better employee's benefits. But everytime, the opportunity just walked pass me. Not only one but twice with the same company. What is wrong out there! I am so frustrated! My friends are getting better and better in their career paths but mine it seems like getting worst. Why? Where is my luck?